The Church

One of the misconception that most people have is... the church is only for the "perfect and holy" ones. Sinless. Successful. Let me tell you. The people inside the church is just as sinful as the people outside. No, we are not any less sinful than those who doesn't go to church/believe in God. The church is where the liars, gossipers, thieves and selfish hypocrites are. We are way too far from being perfect but you see, the beauty of it is that God loves us all the same! It is the liars, gossipers, thieves and selfish hypocrites that Jesus died for on the cross. If you don't believe in God and you're reading this, possibly been hurt by one of the Christians, I apologize. Sometimes we don't know why we do the things we do but trust me, not all Christians are what you think. We mess up because we're just humans. One thing I can assure you, men will fail but God never fails. Accepting Him into my life is the best decision I've made and I don't regret any moment. Sure, He doesn't promise a good and easy life, but He promised to always be there and help us when the bad happens. You can always count on Him. “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” - John 16:33

Transparent

I've always liked the idea of being transparent about my life to people around me. I mean, I don't like to lie and pretend like everything is going fine when they ask "how are you?". I'm full of doubts and mistakes just like most people. I call myself a Christian but I don't always do what Christians should be doing. Without myself realizing it, I judge people and I find it hard to forgive sometimes. Everyone has a different story to tell. Everyone has a battle to fight. Sometimes I look at people on the streets and I wonder what kinda problem they're facing...maybe bigger than mine. "When something bad happens you have three choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you or you can let it strengthen you." Recently, I've been feeling very disappointed and frustrated to the point where I have no choice but to come to God and pour out to Him. For a few nights I cried myself to sleep. And as each time I pour out to Him, I feel more liberated. I needed the conversation. I needed to hear those words. "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." - Exodus 14:13-14 The fact that God sees my most inner being (probably where I place some of the things that I try to hide) and yet still accepts me... it calms me. It's like finding myself again but this time, in a new place. I don't know. I'm just as lost. "Close your eyes this time, cause trust will be your light tonight" Grey is necessary. I don't know what the future holds. I certainly do not know what He has in store for me. But one thing I'm sure, I'm in good hands. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11 I see things a blur now but maybe someday I'll see things in a bigger picture. =) He is good.